Friday, May 24 2019
Qosqo, Peru
Yesterday tired me so much.
Amor and I went to the Temple of the Monkey to take pictures and videos of me channeling. Channeling itself is a bit tiring at times. It was such a beautiful day. First, we went to Mercado San Blas to have breakfast and then we grabbed some cookies from this vegan shop to take them up with us.
Truly being up there is so much nicer than being in the city. I think it's simply because it's nature. We both miss nature; the air is fresher, the breeze is nicer and yes of course the no pollution thing, but it's beyond that. There is such a beautiful energy there that cannot be limited with a description of written words.
Since innerdance had played (and still does) such an important role in my awakening process, we decided to channel the Shakti energy. I will definitely type out what she said. To be completely honest, I didn't know much of her, just what I was told during both Kundalini Yoga Teacher Trainings, that truly wasn't much.
During the first one, we were told that the goal was to move Shakti from the bottom of the spine to the top where Shiva was in stillness waiting for her. During the second one with Yogi Amandeep, the point was to do only one Kriya to wake her up. Little did he know that Shakti in me was already dancing with Shiva.
This is one of the things that came out yesterday; Shakti said that it is not that Shiva is in stillness, they dance together always because they are not separate... funny how we "change" some things. Perhaps it's the duality world, perhaps it's ignorance, perhaps it's the part of all of the programming we had been tied to since we came into this existence.
So, I think it's necessary to go deeper in this subject, no guides?
Ok... I got my cup of coffee and my bottle of water, so let's begin. Shall we, guides?
"Let's"
Yesterday. Some truly amazing info about Shakti came through, specially that Shiva and Shakti constantly dance together. Could you go more in depth about it? Por favor.
"Humans believe that everything is separate, that who is writing this is separate from who is watching it happen, that a mother is separate from a child, that a chair is separate from the table, that a country is separate from who inhabits it. That all humans are separate from each other. However, the reality is that Creation is dancing with itself.
There is a reason why you are sitting down writing as things come through while your neck adjusts itself and Derek is innerdancing in the room while his neck is also adjusting itself. Both of you are going through experiencing the Union State; the State in which there is no separation, but a dance in which if you move this way, he also moves the same way. In other words, the totality of life being experienced in what is believed to be two different physical bodies and beings all together, which behind it all, is the same energy being moved away and dancing with itself.
When we come from the perspective of the totality of life, we understand that nothing is separate, that everything is moving and morphing at the same time, yet it is not. This is the reason why it has been believed that Shiva is in stillness, because he truly is, yet st the same time he is dancing with Shakti in ecstasy. These two things are happening simultaneously --> the stillness and the dance.
When you go to the very point of existence, the nothingness, the stillness, the zero point, there is absolutely nothing in motion, but when you understand that in order for consciousness to experience itself, it had to create its own form and expression; you can see the beautiful dance of life moving with full awareness that at the same time, is in stillness.
Your neck at this moment is going through the dance, as the cervical spine adjusts itself, as consciousness dances with the very same zero point of existence: stillness.
These are concepts so simple yet humans complicate everything because there is this programming that it couldn't be possible for things to be so simple. However, how and why would life complicate itself? It's just dancing, it's enjoying every single moment of its existence in ecstasy.
Think about a moment in time where you were dancing, whether it was alone or with friends. Describe it to me."
I was at EDC Las Vegas with Matt and a bunch of my besties.
“How did you feel?”
Extremely happy. On top of the world, like nothing could ever stop me yet all the pain I had within me was releasing as I danced in pure bliss.
“Exactly. That is the Dance. All these emotions believed to be negative are just as important as the ones that are believed to be positive. They both dance together in ecstasy when it's allowed. That is the Dance, Shiva and Shakti. They are both everywhere. All around. It's not just the energy within the spinal column, it's life itself. Makes sense?”
Ya, so how can we, as humans, be more aware of the presence of both at the same time?
"Well, it's simple --> it's existence itself. When thinking about the pool of where everything became everything, there is no separation. When knowing that there is not separation, it's understood that everything is the whole and with this awareness is understood that as you move, so does she. As you speak, so does he. As Shakti dances, so does Shiva, as Shiva remains in stillness so does Shakti.
Understand that beyond everything you are experiencing, there is a point that moves so fast, it is seen as stillness, like light and again, as life. Life is constantly moving, yet you experience stillness. It's not that life is in a still mode, it's that is constantly moving at such a fast speed that cannot be seen, yet it's in stillness and at the same time in motion.
Go beyond the belief that only one thing happens at the same time, because that is not how it works. Everything is happening at the same time all the time.
Everything.
EVERYTHING.
So when you believe that a problem has been created, the solution for such problem was created at the same time. Everything is there, but because humans tend to name things, they see it as separation, but it's not. They are both there working in unison and doing the same dance: Shiva and Shakti’s dance.”
Ah.
”You and Derek are doing the dance, with your physical bodies, which in reality is One, with your awareness, with your energy, with your thoughts, with your words, with your emotions. The bodies are shifting because the awareness has reached them and they are moving with the Dance of Union.”
How can we make the dance as smooth as possible?
“Let it be. Let it dance. How does it feel like when you are dancing and someone comes, stops and blocks it from flowing?”
Sucks.
“It's the same thing. Both consciousness are remembering; have remembered that they are one and they are dancing in ecstasy shooting signals to every part of the Being (you both) so the Being itself can experience totality. If you both stop it, if one of you stops it, like you said, sucks, the process becomes confused given that it just wants to dance with its full awareness.”
Ah
“So why would you want to stop it?”
Because we have things to do.
“And such things are more important than the Dance of totality?”
No.
“So why do you stop it?”
Because of fear.
“Fear of what?”
Of truly knowing, experience and live the truth.
“Why is that fearful?”
I can't speak for D, but for me ... I went through massive changes super quick. The life I had designed and manifested collapsed. It was scary as fuck. Who I believed to be, turned out it wasn't even me. So, who the hell was I? I suffered. I suffered a lot, yet I know I had designed it all to wake up to my truth; to dance like you said, but it doesn't change the fact that it was fucking scary. It hurt and I felt completely and utterly crazy.
“You still identity yourself with that one being.”
Yes.
“Why don't you let her go?”
Fear?
“Of what?”
Fear... fear of what others would say.
Fear of failing.
Fear of losing.
Fear, just irrational fear.
“Irrational fear indeed. People love you. You have a lot of wisdom that came through experience. You are not failing; you are succeeding in multiple dimensions and you are gaining more than you believe. So what is the reason behind this all?”
Since all these things came to my awareness, I worked so hard to reach the level of what we call Enlightenment and to be completely honest, I didn't think it was reachable; it was almost like a myth, until I met Babaji in Kathmandu. The myth dissolved and it became reality. Yet, I didn't think... part of me didn't think it was attainable for me. Yet a bigger part of me knew, that of course I can be there, why couldn't I? It's just... I'm not even sure. I'm just a "normal" girl. Who am I to reach that level of awareness?
“You are not just a normal girl.
You are the totality of existence.
You are life itself.
You are consciousness, full consciousness dancing in bliss.”
Right. I know that. I do, but how do I let the other part go? So the dance is free to do its thing?
“You are going through a big process. The awakening process is something so beautiful and simple and you are complicating it. Let it be. Let it flow. Trust and let go. You are being shown who you are and you are questioning things because you don't want to let go of who you had believed to be. How could you possibly experience totality if you are stuck in separation?
In order for you to know who you are
You must drop who you think you are
You are not this.
You are not that.
You just are.”
Ok.
“When you surrender and let things flow, it all comes. It's that simple.”
Lol. Super simple and no I'm not mocking.
“We know”
Thank you.
Thank you.
Thank you.
I am beyond grateful.
“We are aware =)
Thank you.
We love you.”
And I love you.
“💗💗💗”