Divine Channel

At times I am not sure how to communicate what happens in my life, in my world, as it's something beyond what the human mind can fathom. Yet, it is extremely important to share as I know and feel I am not the only one experiencing all these things. The reason why I write and share is because I want you to know that you are not alone and if you have some gifts that are seen so "out there," to embrace them. The reason why you have such gifts is because for many many lifetimes you have been doing this work; the work of the Heart. You have been leading people to freedom. You have been the example for many and many look up to you because of that. It is because of your pure heart that such deep gifts get activated and Divinity can do its work through you. Now, what a blessing that is!

For many many years, perhaps even all my life, I searched for something. I knew I was different somehow. I knew there was something so important I had come here to fulfill. The thing is that I kept searching not knowing at the beginning that when you search, in a sense you slam the door of the one thing that sets you apart from everyone else. I suffered so much trying to find it, not realizing that I had it all along. I didn't realize that what I had been searching for was calling me as well, not from the outside but from within.

It is scary to answer that call. Especially when you have already created a life. It is scary when your life goes upside down. The thing here is that even though it feels is going upside down, it is actually heading straight up. When we stop trying to control, when we stop fighting against the change, the channels clear up and they show us the way. This is what happened to me.

On 2018 I left a place I had called home for more than half of my life. I left the community, my family, my besties, my puppies and my partner. I didn't know what was ahead of me, I just knew I had to trust. The road was foggy and I couldn't even see one feet in front of me, yet there was a bigger guidance from the depth of my being that was showing me the way. I tried to seem kind of confident about it, but let me tell you one thing... I wasn't at all. I was freaking the fuck out inside. I was dying and in a sense rebirthing from within. Everything in me wanted to lose it, but the fire from inside kept me alive; kept me going.

Truly, I didn't have any other choice which I am grateful for. It was either "You follow that calling or you die." It sounds harsh, but it is the truth. I am not talking about physically, but spirituality. If I hadn't followed that guidance the spark of light within me would have extinguished itself and the one laying on the hammock, listening to the melody of the waterfall as she's writing these words, wouldn't be here.

There comes a point in life where you have seen so many things you had dreamed of seeing. When you do, there is no going back. It is similar to The Matrix. You truly cannot go back and live that one "normal" life you had had, because you are completely different.

COMPLETELY.

I had known for years that I was doing something more than energy work, something more than Reiki. In 2016 I had the first experience of being a Medium. It absolutely made my jaw dropped. I was at my dear friend Emily's apartment. She was asking me how to hold a ceremony for one of her students. Her boyfriend had just passed. I began to explain to her what to do and then... something changed. I felt a different energy coming through and HE began to speak through me. When Emily noticed this, she grabbed a piece of paper to take notes. The spirit delivered his message and when it was done we both looked at each other with the "Holy Shit" look.

How can you possibly go back to that one "normal" life? Especially when the message was delivered to her student and she cried because that was exactly how her boyfriend spoke.

How can you possibly go back to that one "normal" life?

I reached a point where I knew I had outgrown the city. The guidance I needed was no longer there and the energy in Asia began to call me. So I packed my bags and took off. That was the hardest thing I have done for far.

THE HARDEST.

I was walking without seeing. Something bigger was moving me. At times I felt I didn’t have the energy to keep going, yet I kept being moved and I am beyond grateful for that push.

In Thailand I released so much and I let go fully of who I wanted to be. I began to just be. I concentrated on myself and my journey and let go of any kind of expectation I had. I allowed life to show me the way. Even if at times it felt completely nuts, I let it be and trusted because truly, I had no other choice. I had to trust.

I had to trust I had made the right decision on moving across the world. I had to trust that whatever my parents had told me was not true. I had to trust that whatever feeling which made me take the leap of faith had been the right one to follow. And it had. It absolutely had.

At the end of June of 2018, I found myself surrounded by the most loving Soul Family. The had seen me and they had accepted me from the very first moment. They had never judged me. The had seen me as the Goddess I embody. Through the space of acceptance and unconditional love, the portal towards my truth opened up and I stepped right through it. This is when the channeling became so pure and so strong that it activated the remembrance of the Light Language that comes through me.

At the beginning I had no idea what I was supposed to do with it. However, I knew it. I felt deeply within my own organism that it wasn't the first time I had spoken that language. It hadn't been separate from me, it had been me all along and I had rediscovered it. The more I continued to hold space for others, the more it activated itself until it became normality. I no longer just had "Normal" Reiki Sessions, but I started to speak, chant and sing in that Language. Nature understood it. It became the way I spoke to her and animals as well. It became my mother tongue. Something that allows me to access Higher Realms of Consciousness and opens up a bigger space for you to do your own healing in my presence.

The more I worked with others, the more it humbled me and still does. Why? Because truly, I am not doing the work. This consciousness, the one who's typing goes away, as it were non-existent and something Greater moves through this organism. Even though I remember absolutely everything of a session, the energy that comes through, the things that are said, is not me but the Highest Version of you that comes through me to facilitated your own healing in the form of God.

I know this word can trigger many things for some. I am not referring to the Catholic or Christian God. When I say that word I meant the One thing that moves it all. The One thing that makes us experience this reality. The One thing that moves the leaves and branches of a tree. The One thing that allows the water to flow. The One thing that makes your organism function without you even doing anything at all. The One thing that creates life. That's what I mean when I say God. And within that space there's you as you aren't separate from IT, from me, nor from existence. As you are the One thing that moves it all: God

Shiva & Shakti

Friday, May 24 2019

Qosqo, Peru

Yesterday tired me so much.
Amor and I went to the Temple of the Monkey to take pictures and videos of me channeling. Channeling itself is a bit tiring at times. It was such a beautiful day. First, we went to Mercado San Blas to have breakfast and then we grabbed some cookies from this vegan shop to take them up with us.

Truly being up there is so much nicer than being in the city. I think it's simply because it's nature. We both miss nature; the air is fresher, the breeze is nicer and yes of course the no pollution thing, but it's beyond that. There is such a beautiful energy there that cannot be limited with a description of written words.

Since innerdance had played (and still does) such an important role in my awakening process, we decided to channel the Shakti energy. I will definitely type out what she said. To be completely honest, I didn't know much of her, just what I was told during both Kundalini Yoga Teacher Trainings, that truly wasn't much.

During the first one, we were told that the goal was to move Shakti from the bottom of the spine to the top where Shiva was in stillness waiting for her. During the second one with Yogi Amandeep, the point was to do only one Kriya to wake her up. Little did he know that Shakti in me was already dancing with Shiva.

This is one of the things that came out yesterday; Shakti said that it is not that Shiva is in stillness, they dance together always because they are not separate... funny how we "change" some things. Perhaps it's the duality world, perhaps it's ignorance, perhaps it's the part of all of the programming we had been tied to since we came into this existence.

So, I think it's necessary to go deeper in this subject, no guides?

Ok... I got my cup of coffee and my bottle of water, so let's begin. Shall we, guides?

"Let's"

Yesterday. Some truly amazing info about Shakti came through, specially that Shiva and Shakti constantly dance together. Could you go more in depth about it? Por favor.

"Humans believe that everything is separate, that who is writing this is separate from who is watching it happen, that a mother is separate from a child, that a chair is separate from the table, that a country is separate from who inhabits it. That all humans are separate from each other. However, the reality is that Creation is dancing with itself.

There is a reason why you are sitting down writing as things come through while your neck adjusts itself and Derek is innerdancing in the room while his neck is also adjusting itself. Both of you are going through experiencing the Union State; the State in which there is no separation, but a dance in which if you move this way, he also moves the same way. In other words, the totality of life being experienced in what is believed to be two different physical bodies and beings all together, which behind it all, is the same energy being moved away and dancing with itself.

When we come from the perspective of the totality of life, we understand that nothing is separate, that everything is moving and morphing at the same time, yet it is not. This is the reason why it has been believed that Shiva is in stillness, because he truly is, yet st the same time he is dancing with Shakti in ecstasy. These two things are happening simultaneously --> the stillness and the dance.

When you go to the very point of existence, the nothingness, the stillness, the zero point, there is absolutely nothing in motion, but when you understand that in order for consciousness to experience itself, it had to create its own form and expression; you can see the beautiful dance of life moving with full awareness that at the same time, is in stillness.

Your neck at this moment is going through the dance, as the cervical spine adjusts itself, as consciousness dances with the very same zero point of existence: stillness.

These are concepts so simple yet humans complicate everything because there is this programming that it couldn't be possible for things to be so simple. However, how and why would life complicate itself? It's just dancing, it's enjoying every single moment of its existence in ecstasy.

Think about a moment in time where you were dancing, whether it was alone or with friends. Describe it to me."

I was at EDC Las Vegas with Matt and a bunch of my besties.

“How did you feel?”

Extremely happy. On top of the world, like nothing could ever stop me yet all the pain I had within me was releasing as I danced in pure bliss.

“Exactly. That is the Dance. All these emotions believed to be negative are just as important as the ones that are believed to be positive. They both dance together in ecstasy when it's allowed. That is the Dance, Shiva and Shakti. They are both everywhere. All around. It's not just the energy within the spinal column, it's life itself. Makes sense?”

Ya, so how can we, as humans, be more aware of the presence of both at the same time?

"Well, it's simple --> it's existence itself. When thinking about the pool of where everything became everything, there is no separation. When knowing that there is not separation, it's understood that everything is the whole and with this awareness is understood that as you move, so does she. As you speak, so does he. As Shakti dances, so does Shiva, as Shiva remains in stillness so does Shakti.

Understand that beyond everything you are experiencing, there is a point that moves so fast, it is seen as stillness, like light and again, as life. Life is constantly moving, yet you experience stillness. It's not that life is in a still mode, it's that is constantly moving at such a fast speed that cannot be seen, yet it's in stillness and at the same time in motion.

Go beyond the belief that only one thing happens at the same time, because that is not how it works. Everything is happening at the same time all the time.

Everything.

EVERYTHING.

So when you believe that a problem has been created, the solution for such problem was created at the same time. Everything is there, but because humans tend to name things, they see it as separation, but it's not. They are both there working in unison and doing the same dance: Shiva and Shakti’s dance.”

Ah.

”You and Derek are doing the dance, with your physical bodies, which in reality is One, with your awareness, with your energy, with your thoughts, with your words, with your emotions. The bodies are shifting because the awareness has reached them and they are moving with the Dance of Union.”

How can we make the dance as smooth as possible?

“Let it be. Let it dance. How does it feel like when you are dancing and someone comes, stops and blocks it from flowing?”

Sucks.

“It's the same thing. Both consciousness are remembering; have remembered that they are one and they are dancing in ecstasy shooting signals to every part of the Being (you both) so the Being itself can experience totality. If you both stop it, if one of you stops it, like you said, sucks, the process becomes confused given that it just wants to dance with its full awareness.”

Ah

“So why would you want to stop it?”

Because we have things to do.

“And such things are more important than the Dance of totality?”

No.

“So why do you stop it?”

Because of fear.

“Fear of what?”

Of truly knowing, experience and live the truth.

“Why is that fearful?”

I can't speak for D, but for me ... I went through massive changes super quick. The life I had designed and manifested collapsed. It was scary as fuck. Who I believed to be, turned out it wasn't even me. So, who the hell was I? I suffered. I suffered a lot, yet I know I had designed it all to wake up to my truth; to dance like you said, but it doesn't change the fact that it was fucking scary. It hurt and I felt completely and utterly crazy.

“You still identity yourself with that one being.”

Yes.

“Why don't you let her go?”

Fear?

“Of what?”

Fear... fear of what others would say.
Fear of failing.
Fear of losing.
Fear, just irrational fear.

“Irrational fear indeed. People love you. You have a lot of wisdom that came through experience. You are not failing; you are succeeding in multiple dimensions and you are gaining more than you believe. So what is the reason behind this all?”

Since all these things came to my awareness, I worked so hard to reach the level of what we call Enlightenment and to be completely honest, I didn't think it was reachable; it was almost like a myth, until I met Babaji in Kathmandu. The myth dissolved and it became reality. Yet, I didn't think... part of me didn't think it was attainable for me. Yet a bigger part of me knew, that of course I can be there, why couldn't I? It's just... I'm not even sure. I'm just a "normal" girl. Who am I to reach that level of awareness?

“You are not just a normal girl.
You are the totality of existence.
You are life itself.
You are consciousness, full consciousness dancing in bliss.”

Right. I know that. I do, but how do I let the other part go? So the dance is free to do its thing?

“You are going through a big process. The awakening process is something so beautiful and simple and you are complicating it. Let it be. Let it flow. Trust and let go. You are being shown who you are and you are questioning things because you don't want to let go of who you had believed to be. How could you possibly experience totality if you are stuck in separation?

In order for you to know who you are
You must drop who you think you are

You are not this.
You are not that.
You just are.”

Ok.

“When you surrender and let things flow, it all comes. It's that simple.”

Lol. Super simple and no I'm not mocking.

“We know”

Thank you.
Thank you.
Thank you.
I am beyond grateful.

“We are aware =)
Thank you.
We love you.”

And I love you.

“💗💗💗”