Self-Sabotage

As I continue to grow, more awareness hits me. Some are very lovely, some not so much. However, I welcome it all with open arms and with so much gratitude because it is such a big confirmation of my growth and let’s be honest, who doesn’t like that? I have gotten used to being uncomfortable. Of course at times is not easy at all. At times the ego wants to come out and run the show. At times it is difficult not to let it out especially when something has hit a deep emotional wound. When this happens, I used to shut down, go to the room and be by myself. I find myself still doing that, not as much, but now I give a bit of a clue to my partner that something is passing through me. Even though I am still perfecting this aspect of my life, I am extremely proud of the progress I have been doing. I used to be a volcano and in my eyes I was always right even if clear evidence and facts showed the contrary. Ha ha ha what a game we are playing! It is quite exciting when we remember not to take things personally and of course it can absolutely work the opposite way.

I have been in this conscious path for nearly ten years. I say conscious because I truly believe we have been in it since birth and beyond whether we knew it or not. I have learned to listen when things pop up, to take care of myself, to put myself first and also to apologize when it is needed. The later one was the hardest lol as my system had this code working full force. It truly amazes me the amount of codes and limited beliefs I have been breaking during the past years. Sometimes these come up and we don’t realized they broke until the full awareness comes through. I had a huge one that came to me recently: Self-Sabotage. Allow me to share this part of myself with you. Who knows? Perhaps some things will resonate with you as well.

A few days ago, Amor and I went through a journey. Such journey allowed me to see things more clearly and in a sense see the full puzzle and how each piece comes together. Cool right? Yes, indeed. Even though it was like being around unicorns and butterflies, I truly wasn’t aware of what I had gone through or done to myself in order to be where I am. A couple days later, this awareness came. Somehow Amor kept thinking throughout the day that I was in funky mood, but truly I wasn’t. I was observing and seeing his bodies as he was going though somewhat of a stressful time. I grabbed a book, “The Mastery Of Love,” (super great book by the way!) and went to the balcony to read it. This book has been hitting home since I opened it. I laid on the hammock and something told me to put the book down. As I explained above, I have gotten pretty good at listening to messages, so I obeyed. I put the book down and heard with my heart what was coming through.

I began to see my life as a movie playing through my third eye without any judgements whatsoever. I paid attention. Something big was coming through. I felt it deeply. It was like a Plant Medicine Journey, when Mami Aya shows you your life and what you have been doing with it. I saw the very first experiences where I had felt so lost, so alone. They kept repeating throughout the years. Little by little things kept unfolding and then ... it hit hard ... how unhappy I had been throughout my life, how much disgust for myself I had had and how destructive I had also been. Of course I had known this and this was something that hurt deeply coming out. It wasn’t like it had come out from one day to the other but for years! Years upon years upon years of self-hate, self-loathing, self-destruction. Painful for sure. When I think about how many years I had spent in that kind of mind set, it makes absolute sense the intensity of my awakening, trances and releases. However, the one thing I hadn’t realized until I was in the hammock was how much I had sabotage my own happiness and life throughout my years. This is what blew my mind.

I am just going to call it the plant. Somehow it feels best calling it that way. The plant began to show me, how I had kept destroying my outside world over and over and over again because what I felt within: self-hate. I didn’t think I was worthy of love, nor happiness. I found every single little excuse to sabotage it. When I felt happy, I thought that wasn’t the right mind set or feeling, so I would do something to stop it and go back into the fear or unhappiness mode. My jaw dropped. It hadn’t just been once, but multiple times. Countless times! I could not see how beautiful I have always been, therefore my outside reality couldn’t be blissful. Even though life kept showing me my truth, I kept trying to destroy it. Why? Because in my eyes I was hideous. I was the worst person and I did not deserve to be happy or to have such a peaceful life.

It was so obvious that we indeed manifest what we feel we are worthy of and how much life mirrors what is within in the outside world.

One of the most beautiful things I have created in my life, is the relationship with my ex. This is when my jaw dropped further. He is the greatest man. Truly. Hands down. I can tell you that he is the reincarnation of an angel. He is an earthly angel and one of the greatest beings that has ever existed. Period. I have always known it, but at times I forgot. Of course. Sometimes we go so inwards and forget what is around us or forget to actually see. Well, as I previously said, I had a pretty low self-esteem and at those moments I thought I wasn’t worthy of anything. So, I did things for him to hate me. I hurt myself many times. I tried to end my life. I tried to end the relationship many times prior to the separation, but it wasn’t because of lack of love, but because in my eyes, he was WAY too good for me and he deserved more. However, I didn’t know what I was doing. I can clearly remember those moments and I truly just thought I was bipolar. I wasn’t aware of the sabotage I was doing to myself until I laid on the hammock.

It made me think how many of us do this so often and don’t even realize it. Do you do it? Do you do it as much as I used to? Wow! This is big you guys! So big! Why do we not even think that we are worthy of all the magical things in this plane of existence? Blows my mind. Completely blows my mind. I know there is a “normality” in human society and we are born into it. This is the reason why is so important, SO IMPORTANT to practice mindfulness. It is CRUCIAL to practice Self-Love until it transforms into our true nature. It is beyond important to remind ourselves daily of how absolutely stunning we are! How powerful we are! Remember that if you don’t like something in your current reality, you can always change it. You HAVE the POWER to change it. Please remember that. We didn’t come here to sabotage our happiness, we came here to create the biggest blissful path the world has ever seen!

I invite you to look at yourself in the mirror and say looking straight into your eyes how extremely beautiful you are. Whether you believe it or not, it is true.

I invite you to imagine the happiest life that you could ever have.

I invite you to give yourself permission to bring that into your current reality.

I invite you to believe in yourself.

I invite you to forgive yourself.

I invite you to love yourself.

I invite you.

Will you take the invitation?

Teleportation

I have always been intrigued by teleportation. I remember many years ago, I started saying that I was gonna get teleportation down... in a moment when I was stuck in heavy traffic and I felt impatient. Never did I think, at that time with that awareness, I was actually going to.

What if... what if I told you that we are constantly teleporting? But it's a different kind, not the one we attached a specific definition to a word that might have a different meaning.

When we start to approach life with curiosity and noticing that not only we are creating our realities but also that multiple lives (ours) are happening all consecutively, we can begin to consciously learn what we are meant to learn, release or bring more awareness into someone's life; which will not only benefit them, but also ourselves and all of us a a whole.

I invite you to open your mind a little bit more with me today.

The concept of time, is just a concept and it gives us tunnel vision that we are meant to break out of in order to fully wake up. When we start to break out of the "normality" of life, we can begin to see the simulation we are in.

There are SOO many rules in life. Have you even wondered who placed them there? Have you ever thought that perhaps "they" were limiting you so you wouldn't tune in into your truth and the infinite powers of your being?

However, when we go back about the simulation of life and being the architects of your own reality, we know that we had also designed the rules, the tunnel vision, the forgetting for one specific purpose: to be grateful of the awakening.

I used to think that I would feel so much different and have so many super powers when waking up... which I do, they are just not the definition we attached to those words... attaching... we seem to believe that there is only one way of seeing things, one definition, that everything is set. I ask you this then:

With such limited beliefs, how would you invite your unlimited ones to your current Self?

The very first thing one must practice is dropping such beliefs and expand the mind to different and unlimited possibilities. As everything else, with practice, things get easier. The practice will bring confrontation which is expected; the only way to allow something to fully come out is to feel it, thank it and let it go. Such confrontation can be difficult, if one continues to attach itself to the limited belief in question or somewhat easy if the subject consciously goes into the releasing mode knowing that things will arise, being part of the process.

The longer the confrontation goes for, the longer the limited belief is "winning" its battle.

Compassion is the main key in this process. Compassion will help leading the way as the subject continues to shed layers upon layers of the being he or she thought to be. This technique can be easy forgotten at times if the limited belief is a core belief and the subject has been battling with it for years, perhaps even centuries.

The remembrance of compassion will always take the subject back to the lit road and things will seem easier.

Once these core beliefs begin to detached themselves from the subject, light enters through parts that had been hidden prior to the detachment. This is when things begin to flow easily.

At this moment, the subject has so much awareness that can pin point different things for its growth. It no longer attaches to limited believes and even if one comes up for somebody else, it's easily recognized.

Now, this is the moment where surrender has already worked its magic. As things become more recognized day after day, the subject can see what is happening and how the Universe is giving us everything we want ALL the time.

The Universe is always clearing the roads for us to walk through and reach our dream lives. Many times the roads are dirty, rocky and as they get cleaned, things arise, we release and continue on the path of consciousness.

There is a moment in what we call life when awareness is such that the subject starts to connect with the different versions of the Self in other lifetimes. When this connection gets strong, the subject begins to feel when it teleports to a different Self for whatever reason it might be.

I would like to share an awareness I had about this two days ago. As I was sitting in one of my besties "couch" (it's not really your traditional looking couch), observing the interaction of my friends, I noticed why I had been so tired and quite uncomfortable since my arrive to Las Vegas: I had been teleporting, entering the physical body of the Self that lives in the reality of Las Vegas.

I know it might sound crazy to some of you, but go back to one of the firsts things I said at the beginning about opening your mind and bare with me. I'll even give you an unicorn for some magic! 😉🦄😏

Ok... I hadn't been easy to be back, yet I couldn't placed my fingers on what it was, because I knew I was SUPER EXCITED to be back.

As I was sitting watching my friends, I felt it all. I felt that I had been uncomfortable in my own skin because the current Self, the one who is typing this blog, had a higher awareness than the one that lives here. There is nothing wrong with that, we grow and period.

Sitting there, I felt the teleportation starting to complete its action. Of course it's not gonna be instant, specially when a different awareness comes through and its rooting itself in a physical body that had a completely different level of awareness.

It was uncomfortable

It made me cry

It made be more grateful

It made speechless

And it made me love my life and myself even deeper.

It was

COMPLETELY

BEAUTIFUL

And the thing is:

WE ARE CONSTANTLY DOING IT!!

😱!

😍!

When we asked for something, we start to shed the layers that no longer serve us in order to reach the life we want to live and the Universe works its magic to make that reality real.

So, just life Phil Good says "we pick up the phone, call a Self in another reality so that Self can help us and guide us."

IT TRULY IS JUST LIKE THAT!

Since things might not seem to be working, sometimes we give up way too early, but that doesn't mean things are not being worked out behind the scenes. The Universe is always working for us with us.

ALWAYS

All you have to do is believe.

BELIEVE

What you ask for gets fulfilled, all it's needed is patience. As my grandpa used to say:

"Paciencia y buen humor"

"Patience and good humor"

That's all it takes loves; THAT and truly believing in your potential to manifest the life of your dreams. There is nothing more powerful than a human being and the reason is simple:

You are not just a human

Feel the connection to Infinity

Feel the connection to Source

Feel the connection with your heart

Let it go

Let go of control

Let go of expectations

Surrender

Surrender and Trust


Surrender

And

Trust

💜💜💜

Awakening Process

Monday May 20th 2019
Qosqo, Perú

Good Morning! 😊💖

Wow, yesterday was a day! Ha ha but beautiful anyway. At least I wrote down the descriptions for my channeled Therapies and Guidance! Lol #Yayness

But honestly, I was super tired, not physically, or maybe yes... I think it was a combination of everything.

It all began with the innerdance workshop... to be in the center and allowing people to see my intense process and then … Marie's facilitation. I do have to give her thanks again, because wow! What a release!

Here is where my question comes. A lot of times... it's become part of my everyday life... I hear when someone is thinking about me, their thoughts; I feel their feelings and I even see what they are seeing... the last latter not as much, but the others do happen quite often. The thing is that I sometimes feel that I am invading their privacy of the ones I feel, but then I realize that of course is not like that. The fact that I hear them is because they have opened themselves up and have given me permission to listen to them.

The question is... is that part of my powers? Is that part of awakening? Of my third eye? Higher Self, Divinity, could you please explain to me more about this? Because it is a quite crazy awesome magic trick lol.

“Ok. Begin to write.

When someone begins to wake up, everything within the being begins to change, the vibration, the energetic body, the molecular structure, the physical body. In other words, the being as a whole is adapting itself to the new energetic structure and the changes. Depending on how one has lived their "prior" life, it can be subtle or intense, and also the intensity is defined by the link that one has with previous lifetimes, which one had to bring to this current life to have the awareness of such.

That doesn't mean that it will always hurt, just that the being needs a potent fire to be able to wake up the deepest parts that have been truly asleep.

Therefore, when the fire ignites itself and begins to wake up the core of a being, it shouts little cords to different and all parts to wake them up. Like DNA. The connectivity gets activated and the internal connectivity of one's being is fully linked.

As all these molecules begin to connect, the awareness of someone begins to change. The being feels the subtle changes within and even at times it might think "That's weird" and goes on with what it’s believed to be "normal" life.

It is when the connections get strong that the changes within are felt in a deeper way and the physical body begins to morph following the real structure of the energetic connection.

If we look at the following chart 👉 Grab colors

One molecule begins to break out of its shell to become

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Free from distractions.

It shoots the current awareness, the truth to the rest to wake them up

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And they begin to morph to the current awareness, freedom and the domino effect starts.

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And so on.
Until in one "area" they are all free of limited conditions. Therefore the awareness moves freely and the physical body feels the change and adapts itself to allow the awareness to flow throughout.

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And so on.
When the physical body begins to change, the linear pattern changes and from ALL angles things connect. So there is nothing that is not connected.

Now, going back to your question, when the center gets awakened and sends signals to the rest of the being, what you call chakras, begin to work properly.

Now. You begin to believe they work, but how they truly work... chakras are just cells that had awaken themselves, merged together to become these powerful spheres that send receptors to other parts of the being to help it wake up. As in

"HEY! Are you there? Wake up!"

Think about it like a phone call, and slowly other parts wake up. The stronger these spheres become, the faster other parts wake up.

And some wake up faster than others because the attention is sent to a specific point of the being more than to others.

Every part of a being corresponds to different "powers" or "abilities". So again, the more connectivity in the cellular level, the stronger these abilities become and when the connectivity fully flows throughout, there is no separation and EVERYTHING works in unison.

The reason why you are able to do that is because you are getting fully connected to the infinite fountain of awareness. The infinite connectivity as a whole which is the infinite connectivity of it all.

There is no separation among any beings and that is what you are experiencing.

It's not just that your third eye is open. It's because in a deeper level all the connectors are being connected to it all and you are experiencing the totality of beings and life itself.”

Ah

“And yes, it begins with the ones that you are deeply connected with in this so called reality because your being needs to grow in a way that makes sense to it. So it attaches itself to the known to get closer to the unknown. Makes sense?”

Yes

“So continue to trust. Things are there and you have arrived. Allow your physical body to connect deeper to these points and let it upgrade itself.

You will lead others to do the same.

You already are.”

Thank you so much 😊

“Yup! Anytime!
We love you and we are always here for you. 👉 Your Angel's and guides. We'll talk about that later “

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